Simple and Amazing!

            I must warn you the entry you're about to read will be most likely amazingly simplistic and boring to you!  The reason?  It will contain nothing earth shattering, revealing, or life changing - unless you know what lies beneath the words and images.

            I have been struck these last few weeks by the amazingly simplistic joyful emotions as I have done the most basic and rudimentary tasks performed by each of us every day without thought or care as we go through our lives.  As I've already written about making coffee and frying an egg, I'm sure you know where this is going….

            A few days ago I was sitting on my bed/couch with my girl cat and it struck me how perfect this moment was.  The temperature of the air, the comfort of my surroundings, and the time to actually just be, here, now.  My girl cat was lying next to me and I thought "Wow!"  I can actually sit here and pet her without strain to go and do something else and guilt about not going to do something I must or should be doing instead.

            Each day has had similar revealing moments.  Even though I have performed the tasks I do now almost every day of my life, as I have found was to integrate them into this new way of living, it is like discovering their purpose and my appreciation for them all over again. 

            Like the egg and the coffee, simple stuff like finally being able to put on lotion or chapstick or trim my toenails has had a whole new burst of recognition and gratitude for being able to do these simple things.  On the one had it appears silly, but when you understand how life itself is called forth then it is groundbreaking after all…

            Desire and appreciation are the two greatest gifts we have to create our lives around us.  But so many in the western world have become so complacent and unconscious about our lives that very little of either is felt anymore.  Having the water actually IN my trailer to draw a drink from was a profound moment.  There are as many in Africa and the Middle East right now that cannot pour water from a spout as there are others who can, yet whose desire and gratitude for this task would be greater and therefore more powerful in calling forth life itself?

            I am repeatedly reminded by others who look on my tiny trailer as some kind of failure or loss or step down - but is it loss or sacrifice to awaken again to the joys of life and the power of creation that joy and appreciation bring with them?  I am starting over and building from scratch in many ways, but alternatively I am also learning and loving and finding a level of peace and joy and contentment I have not had before.

            I recognize that my path is not right for most people, but it is not the form of the path that matters, but rather the content you gather while you are walking along that counts.

            This old world is getting pulled apart, but I don't see it as a bad thing.  We have become complacent and lost our connection to what this earth really is and how we live within and on it.  What looks like loss in one moment gives us every opportunity to find something new and beautiful all over again.

            I'll try and find more interesting things to share in the days ahead, but for today even the ability to sit at my computer and write this with a minimum of effort and strain to do so is a gift in itself I have not had since I left my California home.  When I took my Mac from its big box in which it traveled with me bouncing in the back of my trailer, it was with gratitude and happiness I could use it again - yet how many years have I had it and forgotten how much I loved it?

            Each day I find something new that is really old to fall in love with all over again.  What could be better than that?