Trying to Find a Beginning in the Middle....

You'll have to excuse the fact that everything in this blog and in my website is getting all mixed up and off a single kind of focus.  I'm still trying to find my way into the format that will best work with the goals I am reaching for....still looking if you'll stay with me while I experiment!

This blog is really for the #6 video and PDF file, the back stories and info is found on the main website.  So, with that, what is it that is the goal I am seeking for?????

The only real purpose to ANY of this is to do my part in building the new world.  As I've said, it won't be done with our hands and feet, but with our minds and hearts.  I started this process a while ago, but want to start doing a better documenting both my journey and that of others as together we work towards a common goal - this new world.

My goal is to use my tiny travel trailer as a metaphor for this process.  As I rebuild it, I want to use it as a metaphor for how we can build this new world out of the old world we are all living in now.  Not everything "here" is bad or broken, but a lot of it is.  This process is really just each of us letting go of what we don't want and creating what we do.

In my heart I write books, but blogs don't allow for that kind of long winded reflection - but neither do you get the heart of a real message down in a few words and moments of one's attention.  So, I'm trying to do a bit of everything.  Brief summary's here.  Video's to make it visual.  Written PDF files to more fully develop ideas and concepts that get missed and misunderstood in a quick glance during a busy day.

To get everything in one place - blog, video, PDF File (essentially a chapter one to the eventual book I hope this will be), go here:  jillelizabeth.net/journals

 Here's just the video:

Thanks for stopping by and I will see you soon when we get to entry #7...when it stops raining and I can go back outside!

Jill
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The Truth in Shoveling Snow

            I woke up this morning to find the beauty of yesterday still surrounding me in my tiny cabin in the mountains.  The sun shines over the ridge behind my home to light up the mountain on the other side, a morning ritual I have come to cherish as I await the brief glimpse of pink, blue, and gold as the rays touch the mountain tip.

The view from my window

            I am here, warm, safe, protected.  The day begins with a prayer and the understanding I have worked so hard to find, that the truth of life is in the simplest and smallest of moments and thoughts.  I feel the love and the blessing I have sought for all these years and the desire to share it is renewed again.

            But as I sit here now, the day more in motion than not, reviewing the realities that others are living with war, crisis, murder, pain, suffering….my tiny moment gets lost.  How do you share what appears to be so very small when the rest of the world is focused on what seems to be so very big?  How do you convey that the big only got big because the small was swept aside and became lost of its own importance?

            I have spent the last two days shoveling the snow from my drive on the hopes that someday I can unbury my car and leave my tiny home.  Each shovel is one small act that on its own means very little.  I began when there was no ground to be seen or path to be found.  I just began in a random spot to lift the snow and move it away from where I stood.

            There is a sense of satisfaction that can't be described but only felt when you have worked hard and can now see your accomplishments.  The snow is not gone, but I can see my progress.  The fatigue in my muscles tells me I have accomplished a worthy goal and they feel satisfied to have exerted so much effort. 

25% done.....

            As I stood with my shovel and looked upon a vast amount of snow, it felt overwhelming…how could I ever get through all of this snow?  But I began, one small scoop at a time.  It has taken me many hours to do what a machine could do in a few minutes or several men could do it just a few more for a few dollars.  But the difference would be that I had not cleared my own snow, I had not felt my own muscles move, and I had not created my own space to now move freely in.

            Some would say I have taken the harder path - but I feel more like the turtle than the rabbit, slow and steady will win my race - no one else's.  What is the value of our time to us really?  No money is made by shoveling my snow myself, but the value to me is greater than anything a dollar can buy. 

            We are so focused on saving time and money to get more time and money, but what are we really seeking?  What value do we search for?  What goal is it that we seek to find that could be greater than the one we have here waiting for us in every tiny moment and simple thought?

Lilith will share her love too!

            There is no war nor murder that will bring us an answer that we think we seek.  There is no distraction that will cure the pain and suffering we so desperately as a society seek to avoid.  But how does one person tell another this?  It can only be discovered on one's own, with the infinity of time to find what is waiting for us in plain sight.

            I want to share with you what I have found - the truth as love and simple blessing that it is.  But it is not glamorous or sexy or elusive or expensive or dangerous.  It just waits, patiently and certainly for anyone who is ready to find it.  And so too will I wait, shoveling my snow, writing my words, and sharing my truth so that when anyone is ready to share the love and blessings with me, I will be here - patiently waiting for you.

jill

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Problem or Solution?

Yesterday I wanted to further understand the problem of what is happening to the world - and I did....but here's the issue with naming the problem, sometimes it is really, really hard to let the problem go when it is SOOOO overwhelming!

I started thinking more about how we want to know what is happening, but the reality of it can be so devastating and frightening that a normal human response is to shut down, distract, or in my case go much lower in my mood than I wanted for my self.

You can't know what you do want until you name it and we most easily find the name and ownership of what we want when we name and own what we don't want.  What is happening in the world right now is a whole lot of what we don't want going on.

It is a true revolution for change or is it a facade to move us further into our fear and thus increase the control?  Do we face it or fight it or forget about it?  How do we know what is real when both sides are too incredible to fathom?

The immediate thing to do is to be aware you are off vibrationally when you find yourself more in the problem than not!  For me, a good way to ground myself back to where I want to be is to get outside, and yesterday provided stunning blue skies above a small lake surrounded by snow.  It just doesn't get any better than that!  How can I stay down when beauty surrounds me?

The problem can suck you down and drain everything you've got if you don't stop it in time.  I do not believe in hiding or denying what the problems in our lives and in this world are...but I do believe, well I know, that relief and resolution only comes when we let the problem go and move into the solution.  No one ever felt better or did anyone any good by staying stuck in the problem, no matter what its name was.